268 – Change Is Necessary

I feel like I’ve been writing the same blog post for years. I know I need to make change, and I know, deep down, what that change needs to be. I need to stop drinking. I feel like in the end it will be a permanent and total decision to quit drinking but if I’m being honest I’m not ready to do that yet.

Does that make me an alcoholic? I don’t know. I can tell you that I know my wife hates that I drink. She herself has given it up, not cause she had a problem. Farm from it. She did it purely cause a single drink some nights would make her lose an entire day the next day.

I realized over the weekend that nearly every single ‘social’ activity I have revolves around drinking. That’s not a good thing.

Can I stop? Sure. Will I? Not so sure. Back in January I posted this entry to the blog: 264 – NEW YEAR, NEW ME? Back then I’d come to the same conclusion… and here I am, 6 months later, and found pounds heavier. When is change coming?